Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Post pros

It's been a day and a half since pros ended. About the same time too that I took to get over the last paper.

It's not exactly a good thing if you felt a paper was extremely bad when the general consensus is it was overall an easy paper. And it is so to the extent where I feel there's a pretty good chance that i'll fail it. Perhaps the reason why it affected me so much until now (or maybe it still is) is that, err... Chinese aside, I've never actually failed any major exam. Personal expectations maybe. Or it may also be due to pride as I never actually had to face a fail grade. But either way, it was quite a bad end to pros, and not really one that adds to the yes-pros-are-finally-over kind of joy

Well, thank God i had quite a program packed day right after pros all the way till midnight, with company from friends, filled with laughter and fellowship. It definitely helped to keep myself away from the negative feelings and uneasiness. But then again, during my QT and this whole day, everything just flooded back again. I think back to a verse "Who by worrying can add a single hour to his life?" A verse that is so simple but yet holds so much truth and so much wisdom. Pity it's always easier to tell that to others than to put into practice.

I figure the only thing I could possibly do now is to cast aside the thoughts of pros and commit everything to God. All burdens, including results, at the foot of the Cross.